Early October updates, NaNo flailing

I once again forgot to update for awhile, oops. Well, I read three of the five library books that I’d mentioned last post, took them back because I was at my renewal limit, and then went back like a week later and checked out the ones I hadn’t read again. However, I currently have THREE LibraryThing Early Reviewer books in my possession that I need to read and review. I’m like 3/4ths of the way through one, but it’s very information-heavy with statistics and such, so it’s taking awhile to get through it (I also have like a whole page of notes on what I’ve read so far so I can do an accurate review).

Writing… Yeah. That story idea I mentioned last post? Kinda died. I have like maybe 15-20k worth of story figured out, but then it just… Won’t go any further. I can’t seem to figure out anything more, figure out where to go with it from there. I’m hoping that if I kind of ignore it for a few weeks I’ll be able to come up with something solid. Right now I’m poking at my Alexz story; One of my New Year’s Resolutions was to finish my Alexz story, and I have literally written nothing at all on it this year. If I Rebel for NaNo this year, the way I did last year, and work on two stories, between the new idea and finishing Alexz story I could probably get to 50k. It’s just… As much as I *want* to finish Alexz story, and as much as I love the plot and the characters, it just isn’t really grabbing me right now. Basically, I’ve written most of the Big Plot-Driving Scenes (writing out of order as always), and now most of what’s left is just the 2 1/2 weeks of touring and shopping and such, which isn’t totally boring but I just can’t seem to get interested in writing it. *sigh*

I’m also betaing a wonderful, lovely, exciting novel for a dear friend in hopes that she can eventually publish it. So that’s been taking much of my writerly-brain concentration lately. In general I don’t really read sci-fi or fantasy (there are exceptions, like The Catalyst and sequel by Helena Coggan, and of course City of Hope and Ruin by Kit Campbell and Siri Paulson, but those are exceptions). But certain authors I’ll read pretty much anything they write because their *writing* is just so awesome, so the genre doesn’t really matter, and this friend that I’m betaing for is one of those authors. So yeah, that’s fun.


New story? Plus random updates

Okay, so, someone needs to remind me that this blog of mine exists and that I should updated it more often. Camp NaNo was a bust, struggled the first four days, writing a total of 300 words, before I realized it just wasn’t going to happen and I needed to stop forcing it.

I have read two books in the last month. *sigh* I have four (five?) library books that are due in two weeks that I haven’t started. I have a LibraryThing Early Reviewer book that I received three weeks ago that I haven’t started, and it’s not that it doesn’t look interesting, it’s just… I don’t know. Just can’t concentrate on it.

Been back at work for a few weeks now, it’s… Going okay, I guess? 3 hours a day, two days a week, there is a little anxiety but nothing too bad. I get kind of overheated at work, though… The weather here has been 103-108 degrees in the afternoons, and while work does have air conditioning it never seems to reach the storage areas where I work most.

I have a… Very tentative story idea for November NaNo. Like many of my stories, it started out based on something that happened in my life, a girl I was close with when I was a kid and we lost touch for a long time, and then briefly resumed contact and at that point I kind of had a crush on her but never told her. She was… Kind of a wild teenager at that point, and sometimes I wonder what would have happened if we’d remained in touch, or if I’d told her how I felt. This story idea takes that and runs with it, and then my muse decided to throw a few interesting curve balls into the mix, and I think I might have the beginnings of something. It’s all in my head for now, haven’t done any actual outlining or anything, just kind of seeing where my thoughts take it for now.

Hospital and not reading and writing

So yeah, I was in the hospital for nineteen days this month. Unconscious for two weeks, breathing tube, very fuzzy memories. My family traveled to see me while I was in the hospital but I remember very little. I am home now, and doing better, but having trouble with emotions. Trying to get back into therapy.

Reading: I haven’t been. Not since I got out of the hospital. I’m still semi on target for the 75-books-in-2017 reading challenge, and I did finish listening to Furiously Happy again the other day. I started reading an old BabySitter’s Club favorite, Kristy and the Secret of Susan, but haven’t gotten very far. Finally received my March LibraryThing Early Reviewer book and started reading that, but it’s kind of stupid.

Writing: I haven’t been. Tomorrow starts July Camp NaNo, and I signed up, but I don’t know if I’m going to do it. I signed up with a goal of 15k, which is only 500 words a day and if I push myself I know I could do it, but… I just don’t really want to. I don’t know what the heck I would write, either. I’m stuck on Remy-sequel, and all I have left to write of Amanda-sequel is a few filler scenes. Unless I decide that the “end” I wrote isn’t really the end, which is something I’ve been toying with… There’s a lot I could do with Amanda-sequel, if I let myself expand it more. Lots of interesting scenarios Amanda and Meg could get into. I worry about dragging it on too long though, and writing myself into a corner… If I continue the story past what I have now, what would happen to their relationship? I always intended for Amanda to stay married to Daniel, that was never in question. Until I wrote Amanda coming onto Meg while drunk. It’s funny how sometimes the things that you end up writing surprise you. I didn’t expect that Amanda would ever long for what she used to have with Meg, certainly never act on that longing. The story could go a whole different direction now, if I chose to write it.

Not-writing and reading and stuff

Camp NaNo is over for April and I managed to write 67k. That’s more then double what my increased goal was, which makes me feel really good. About 55k of that is Amanda-story sequel. The rest is Remy-story sequel.

I haven’t written much since April ended, though. I’ve written half of a scene in the original Amanda-story, because there are some parts I skipped over and I would like to fill those out. Like the week of taking care of a fake baby for school. Or the Thanksgiving storyline that I just kind of abandoned. Or the three weeks (?) between going down to the canyon and Amanda running away. I really need to fill out those parts.

Been reading a lot. Finished my library books and took them back. I was sorting through my location tags on LibraryThing, making sure everything was where it said it was, and I got nostalgic over my BabySitter’s Club books. So I’m reading some of them again. Finished two in the last four days, and have one more I want to read. These are all books I’ve read multiple times before, and I really should be concentrating more on my To-Be-Read bookcase instead of re-reading stuff, but it’s just so wonderful to re-read sometimes. I’m struggling with the idea of re-reading some of my Torey Hayden books… They are hard to read, emotionally, but so damn *GOOD*.  I’ve read 40 books so far this year and I’m going to keep the momentum as much as possible.

The last week or so I’ve been feeling really lousy, very overly-emotional and cry-y and stuff. I thought it was ToM, but then that went away and the emotions stayed. I worried that it might be a depression settling in, but the last two days have been fairly good. I haven’t had a major depression since I discovered Jenny Lawson back in September, and I fully credit her awesomeness for that. It was a turning point in my life,  becoming a part of her “tribe” and learning about Furiously Happy. I know better then to think that my depression is truly gone, but it’s much more manageable now.

Camp NaNo and not reading

Camp is going great. In fact I’ve raised, and then reached, my goal multiple times. I’m currently at 38,991 words out of 30k, because I refuse to raise my goal yet again. I’m just going to keep going and see how far I get. I’m attempting to keep a 2k average each day, and that’s been going well despite one day where I wrote nothing. This month I had a day where I wrote the most I have *ever* written in one day, a bit over 4k. That felt good.

As far as the novels themselves… Remy-sequel is stalling, because I can’t seem to get my mind into it. I’ve started writing the first therapy scene, and I think it’s going well, but… Meh. Amanda-sequel is flourishing, despite having NO clue what the ending will be or where it is going. I never intended for Amanda and her husband to break up, but there have now been hints of that, which… I’m confused about. Can Amanda and Meg stay together without it coming in between Amanda and her husband? I don’t know.

I have been reading slowly. Read a couple R.L. Stine books from the library, they were so-so, not great. I currently have two more books from the library that I need to read before Saturday, but they are both sort of slow and boring and I keep putting them down. I have read 31 books so far this year, so I *think* I’m kind of on target for my 75-books-in-2017 challenge? I don’t know if I can keep it up though. And that is counting the Furiously Happy audiobook which I just constantly listen to on repeat. Hey, it counts!

Camp NaNo and reading

It’s April 1st, which means it’s the start of Camp NaNoWriMo. I’ve started out with a low goal of 15k for the month, because frankly I have no clue what I’m doing. I’m working on both Amanda’s sequel and Remy’s sequel, and I did a tiny bit of outlining last night, but the outlining is literally like three scenes worth, and I’m not sure where I’m going from there.

I started writing at midnight last night, just to get a few paragraphs down. On Amanda’s sequel. Meg needs to tell her girlfriend that Amanda is back in her life. And tell her the truth about her relationship with Amanda. That’s not going well (for Meg, I mean). I had a lot to do today and didn’t really spend as much time on writing as I should have, and when I looked at my wordcount I thought maybe I had around 800 words? …. Turns out I wrote over 2k today without realizing it. Yay?

I read all eleven Horse Diaries books that I got from the library. They were good, and I’ve put the other three books in the series on my wishlist. I really like that each book in the series deals with pieces of true history, like World War 2, or the Oregon Trail. And they all had such beautiful illustrations that I scanned some of them so I can print them out and make a collage of them at a later date.

Writing and reading

If I remember correctly one of my New Years Resolutions was to read 20 books this year. In the past week I have read five Nancy Drew Clue Crew books from the library. Clue Crew is for younger readers, and takes place when Nancy is eight years old. They are rather simple and in all but one of the books I read the solution to the mystery was beyond obvious, but they are nice little books with good illustrations. At one point in my life (several years ago) I claimed that I wanted to read every single Nancy Drew book in existence. Nowadays I might amend that a little, because I have no interest whatsoever in the newer graphic novels, but I really do love Nancy Drew in (almost) every form.

I have caved in and started writing Amanda-story sequel. *headdesks* I had it in my head for like two weeks before I finally caved. I haven’t written much, maybe 1k or so, only one scene so far. But I’m kind of curious to see how I can possibly push this. In this sequel it is ten years after they graduate high school (so about thirteen years from the end of the last novel), and Amanda is now married with an adopted daughter. Which means things are different, when Meg and Amanda reconnect, but there is still that raw pull between them and they both want to rekindle what they once had (although Meg will vehemently deny that at first). I can see this going several different ways, although I would like for Amanda to stay married. So I’m poking at it and writing a little and just kind of seeing where it goes. If I can get more of an idea for the overall arc of the plot before April I might be doing it for April’s Camp.

Camp. April’s Camp NaNoWriMo. That’s a thing, I do it every year, but I have not decided what to do for it. I need a firmer grasp on Amanda-sequel’s plot, if I were to do that. I also have Remy-sequel, where I need to figure out what Allison is ultimately going to do, and if they can get past Remy cheating. I don’t want to split them up, that was never my plan, but trust has been shattered. OH, and speaking of Remy-sequel, a friend (HI DI!) gave me a really good idea for a twist to the whole cheating plot line, and I might have to write that out too and see where it takes me.

Editing updates and such

My (first) goal was to get through 20 hours of Remy-sequel editing by April 1st. I reached the 20-hour goal two days ago, although maybe I cheated a little because I finished my first round of editing on Remy-sequel so I went back and started my third round of editing on the original Remy-story. I’m only about halfway through Remy-story, so I am going to continue editing… At this point it’s just sentence structure and grammar/spelling stuff. I have a few half-finished scenes in the story that I need to finish, but not right now.

Been poking at Amanda-story but not really doing much with it. I now have a plotbunny of a possible Amanda-story sequel,  which takes place at their 10-year high school reunion. I refuse to start writing that. Just no. Not now. Maybe not ever. ….. Maybe for April Camp NaNo?

Have done nothing with Courtney-story or Alexz-story. Oops? I really should. But I’m just not in the right mindset for those stories right now.

Writing and editing

So far this month I’ve done five hours of editing, but I actually only started a week ago so I think I’m doing pretty good. Going back through Remy-sequel and getting rid of all the NaNo tricks, like not using contractions, is tedious but it’s helped me figure out where I am with the story. …. I still have no idea where it’s *going*, but I know where I am right now. I’ve continued the cheating storyline and written about 500 words on that in the last few days.

I’ve been poking at Amanda’s story, too. There are half-written scenes and a two-week period that I need to fill in. I’ve gotten about 1.5k on that so far this month. Amanda’s story is just for me, since my main reader doesn’t want to read it and I completely understand, but I still want to get it done sometime. I had a lot of fun with it last November and I got a lot more out of it then I thought I would.

Haven’t touched Alexz’s story or Courtney’s story…. Courtney’s story is lower priority but I still do want to do *something* with it. Alexz’s story… I keep putting it off because I’ve written all the outlined scenes and now just have to fill in the stuff in-between and I’m kind of stuck on that.

I’m already looking ahead to Camp NaNo in April, wondering what story I’m going to work on there. If I get a brand-new idea I’m not going to say no to it, but I think overall I want to concentrate on my current stories this year instead of starting new ones. I don’t think I have enough of Remy-sequel left to write to do it for Camp, and what I do have left I’ll probably get done before then anyways.

New Year’s Resolutions

Okay, so, I haven’t posted here in two years. I’m sorry, poor blog! But this is how I am with blogs. I just…. Forget about them. I belong to a wonderful forum where I have my own thread and update everyone on my life almost daily, so I never have much to write about in blogs. But I’m going to try to make this my writing-related blog in the new year.

I have a few New Year’s Resolutions for this coming year, which is something I don’t usually do because they never stick, but… Hopefully this time will be different?

  1. Complete Remy’s story *and* Remy’s story sequel (yet to be appropriately titled). The original Remy’s story I’ve been working on since 2013, and while it’s 99% done, including the ending, there are a few scenes where I just left off halfway through because I couldn’t think what to write. Remy’s story *sequel* is currently a huge mess, because I wrote it for one NaNo and then wrote a completely different portion in another document for another NaNo and have yet to figure out how they fit together.
  2. Complete Alexz’s story. Another untitled one, and one I worked on for most of 2016. It’s ending has been written, but there are about 2 1/2 weeks of the tour that is unwritten. I would love to finish it up.
  3. Work 3 days a week, 4 hours a day. I’m currently at 2 days a week, 3 hours a day, but I often call in. My anxiety has made it very, very difficult for me to work, especially during the middle of this past year. It’s been getting better but it’s something I still need to work on a lot.
  4. Read *at least* 20 books, at least 12 of them should be from my TBR bookcase. Because I keep getting new books instead of reading the 500+ unread ones on my shelves.
  5. FINISH my 2003-on photo album. … I haven’t actually *started* the album, but this past year I worked a lot on going through my computer files and picking out which photos I want to go in it. From 2003 and on. Except I haven’t done 2016 yet.

That’s it. Those are my five major goals for the New Year. Maybe I’ll stick with them this time?